Lie Still, Little Bottle|
I feel good these days. My moods are more balanced, my relationships are flowing well, I’m mostly productive.
I feel so good, in fact, that I’m tempted to stop taking my Paxil. I don’t need it now, right? I’m fixed! Except I know what will happen.
This is weird. This understanding that all of my competence and strength these days comes from a tiny white pill. Oh, I could kind of function without it, if I wanted to fight off more insecure tremors, if I wanted to exhaust myself in battling lack of focus, if I wanted to fight all day.
As it is, this feels so natural that it’s hard to believe that it’s not. And there’s that strange tug: should I be this beholden to medication?
Yes. Yes, you should. For now, anyway.
Cross-posted from Ferrett's Real Blog.
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