The Watchtower of Destruction: The Ferrett's Journal - A Spoonful Of Jealous Makes The Poly Go ‘Round
A Spoonful Of Jealous Makes The Poly Go ‘Round|
One of the limiting factors for me, in expressing jealousy, is that my insanity makes the line hard to see.
I mean, I often have twinges of jealousy about OSOs going out and doing their thing together, but I don't ever want to be the "OHMIGOD YOU NEVER DO THAT WITH ME!" raving lunatic, so I shut it all down.
Add in my insecurity and my other issues, and it all spirals. Despite one OSO continually telling me they want me in their life for the rest of it, I've had to force myself to say "I feel insecure when you do [x]" because of various issues. And, I think the lack of reciprocal jealousy might be an issue...
...food for thought, for me!