The Watchtower of Destruction: The Ferrett's Journal - Why Satisfying Is Not Often Smart
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I guess it sets off warning bells for me just on a personal level because of my experience growing up.
Once when I was about 15 my step mom found my a bunch of Penthouse magazines hidden between my mattress and box springs (Yes, I had no imagination at all about hiding stuff) and then made me take them out into the yard and pour gasoline and set them on fire while she yelled at me about what a dirty pervert I was.
Then she beat the shit out of me (not for the first or last time.)
My step mom, of course, told all her friends about finding the porn and making me burn it, but for some reason didn't mention the punches to my kidneys when she was telling the story (and holy fuck I wasn't going to bring it up as I sat there in a huge shame spiral.)
If I had been 15 in 2012 I could easily see my step mom finding my porn history and making me burn my computer (since, you know, what teens look at magazine porn anymore.)
It just seems too much like the behavior abusive parents show the world before and after the real abuse happens in private.