Immortalize Your Need On My Skin
Once again, over at FetLife (the Facebook for Kinksters), I have chronicled a Tale of my sexual exploits… or kind of not. This is unusual for me, since I’m retelling an old story with a slightly new twist, about what hickies and scars mean to me. The beginning of the essay is as such:
There were thirty-two hickeys on my neck, each as precise as her kisses, these tiny blood-red ovals.
This was the only proof that we’d been together. And I didn’t even realize it until I got to school that day.
I suppose I should have been embarrassed. But to me, it was proof that a girl had touched me, had made out with me – which no one had before. Oh, my friend Sue had drunkenly kissed me when I was driving her home, but I was three months away from eighteen and that was all the action I’d ever gotten….
Long-time readers will doubtlessly recognize this tale as a variant on “The Great Misunderstanding,” which remains one of the best personal essays I’ve ever written. If you’ve ever been beaten down in high school, and wondered how I walked away from that, “The Great Misunderstanding” gives you what is, quite literally, my origin story. You discover how I lost my virginity and my shame in the same day.
The one on FetLife, “Immortalize Your Need On My Skin,” ties two memories together in a way that illuminates me. It’s a smaller tale, I suppose. But if you’ve been irked because I post the sexy-exploratory stuff on Fet, then go read “The Great Misunderstanding” (which is, ostensibly, about Magic: the Gathering but really it’s not) and you’ll get the gist. And if you are on Fet, then you can see bookends. In either case, if you like my writings, I’d head over. And if not, enjoy Black Friday.
Cross-posted from Ferrett's Real Blog.
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Tags: old scars that never heal, sex, sorry your essay is at another castle
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