Honestly? It's better than Hubby 1.0's continual singing of the same two lines of a song and getting the lyrics wrong every fucking time. You can be cute background noise, that always drove me nuts.

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"`Why would Jerry bring anything to the party?' or `Why would Jerry bring anything to the party?'..."

lol!

Don't worry... I have a similar thing I do.

Except I won't practice past statements, I just remember things I said and did years ago at odd times and get mildly obsessive about how the people around me at the time might have taken the statement. (Honestly, most of the time, the people involved have forgotten it even happened!)

Seriously, stuff from junior high will come back and bite me in the ass at times. (And if you can point me to a thirteen year old who's social maneuvering isn't embarrassing at times, I'll give you a cookie... a homemade one at that!)

So, I do feel your pain on this one. :) And there is hope (or so they tell me. ;>)

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I do that too! Sometimes I obsess so much about something that happened months or years ago that I can't sleep at night. x.x And I feel guilty, that's the main thing. I sit and feel guilty about how I might have possibly upset or offended someone, when the people involved probably don't remember it happening in the first place.

Brains suck sometimes. XP

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For me, now, it's more the fact that my statement/action might have shed a less than socially polished light on me. (What can I say, I'm a teeny bit vain. At least I'm honest!) It wasn't always this way though... I used to agonize over how I may or may not have hurt people as well too.

Now, when my tummy says I've hurt or offended someone I am quick to apologise on the spot. It helps me sleep better at night... ;)

But yes, brains do suck sometimes... too bad they're so damned necessary! I wish those kinds of emotions originated from a glad we could have removed, like the appendix or something. ;)

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Sometimes I worry about social polish, except I just suck in social situations anyway, so I just assume I failed at looking suave and worry about the other possibilities. I try to apologize right then if it sounds wrong, but sometimes I don't pick up on it until later (especially if I was drunk at the time).

Haha, if they originated from the appendix, I would've been free of them in third grade! Years of anguish would have never happened. XD

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It's when we stop worrying about being suave that we attain social grace. ;)

I know! I wouldn't benefit from the appendix thing, being as I still have mine... but I'd have opted for a voluntary removal after I got insurance. ;)

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I'm glad I'm not the only person that does that. High school's a particular problem for me.

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Oh god... Junior High and High School are rife with those instances... I was so awkward back then!

Mostly "teh angst" confines itself to "that time of the month" or just prior... but it's no less difficult. :P

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And that is exactly why I'll say something a day later to people I was talking to. I've done something like this on average once a day for the past week.

"I'm not sure how I came off when I said 'X', but what I meant was 'X-defined in my brain', not the more likely-understood 'what X actually means' that I'm sure everyone took as me being a fool for saying."

After mulling it over and thinking how I sounded for a good 10-20 minutes.

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I knew there was a reason I liked you.

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Makes sense that this might be related to your SAD. I have the same habit of rehashing social interactions, usually to demonstrate to myself how sad and lame I am socially.

I've learned to recognize that as a sign that I am picking on myself and need some other kind of care-- usually related to depression, stress, or lack of sleep.

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Yeah, I'm very self-conscious about how I do in social situations. It really made teaching hell at times because no matter how well you do, you still have a number of students who don't like you which I found really hard to deal with.

Although there are social gaffs I still cringe about, I really try not to do this. I try to accept that no matter how hard you try, you will still not handle social situations as well as you can mentally in hindsight. Also, the people who usually judge you the harshest for your social gaffs aren't really worth worrying about anyway because of the simple fact that they are judgmental. They're just taking out their own self-hatred out on you.

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Oh, ditto on the teaching!

In graduate school, we were all videotaped multiple times teaching class. They managed to catch me make an incredible gaffe on videotape as well as my chagrinned reaction. But some situations are so ridiculous that you can only laugh at them, and that was one.

I try to do more laughing than cringing at my own social ineptitude. Acknowledging and working on my weaknesses is more productive anyway, and I am making progress (some days more than others).

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Well, I do it when I don't have SAD. But I tend to do it sporadically.

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For me it's an issue of doing this when I'm under stress or generally feeling down.

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I totally do that, too! I've just recently begun to figure out that my inside head voice is vastly superior to my outside head voice. Hence, practice, practice, practice.

Also, I've been busy practicing for Fake British Accent Day tomorrow. :)

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Capital idea, wot.

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I tend to say phrases over and over like taht too xD

I was thinking about nodding and facial expressions that go along with it today at lunch and my boyfriend had to ask me what i'd said because he was wondering why i was nodding and grimacing xD

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Ferrett - I know you don't know me personally though I have commented before. I just wanted to thank you for being a shining light. Whatever you might think, I at least take great pleasure in reading your this journal. I look in on your private life and your interactions in your marriage for guidance.


Thank you, sir.

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Thanks. I appreciate that.

Though maybe I'm not the best guy to be looking to for private life guidance at this point.

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I don't think I understand this one.
If by SAD, you mean seasonal affective disorder, I always thought that was the "winter blues" or "Seattle rain blues" or etc. And I assume Ohio is all Springlike right now? 71 degrees, partly cloudy, according to waether.com.
Enlighten me, oh self-worried one....

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Ferrett has mentioned once or twice that he has the reverse, his SAD happens in spring and summer, as opposed to the usual. SAD, as I understand it, is not limited to the season of winter, it's just that the majority of sufferers experience it in that season. That's why it's seasonal affective disorder and not winter affective disorder.

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Mine's reversed. More sunlight fucks it.

Go figure. I'm naturally gloomy.

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Well, I occasionally do that myself, but I can beat that.

Sometimes, at random moments, a memory will pop in my brain, a memory where, in retrospect, I know what I said was somewhere in between "kinda bad" and "absolutely wrong". And I'll then go over what I could have said to make things better, and generally say it out loud. To nobody in particular. Sometimes, a decade after the event.

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total non-sequitor: Ferret brain activity increased just 20 percent when looking at Keanu Reeves compared to looking at darkness, the study found.

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Wow. If I learn something new every day, as the saying goes, then today's quota is officially filled.

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I know how I watch the Matrix.

Whoah.

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Hey,

This isn't in response to this post, but I didn't feel like doing e-mail.

Here's the source for the MRE's I mentioned awhile back. With shipping it's two cases (24 meals) for $110. I ordered some from them a few months ago. They were all real USGI meals, complete, and had the heaters. They send a complete "Meal A" or "Meal B" menu. That means you get 24 different meals. (Meal A is one set, Meal B is a different sent, with some overlap between the two)

http://www.armygear.net/ag/store/0120.html#

I haven't seen a better price for military MRE's on the net, not for complete MRE's with the heater at least.

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Thanks. That's awesome.

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Hey ferrett, I was just wondering if you had seen this:

http://sports.espn.go.com/broadband/video/videopage?videoId=3385239
The video isn't working for me, but I'm pretty sure this is the segment I saw on TV. Just thought you'd be amused.

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I've seen live-action Quiddich twice. Kind of disappointing both times. Boo!

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